I want to show you something…

When Ch. 7 ended of the S-Town podcast, there were so many questions.

At the time, everyone was so very emotional.

Local people were defensive. People who had lived a small town life and moved away were in agreement.

I remained silent on a lot of questions that I could have answered, but it was simply because I did not want to argue.

I think enough time has passed and I also think there is something many people need to know.

I look at the podcast differently now.

When I lost John, I lost my friend.

The painful thing is that he was not my first friend to lose to suicide.

I have lost several.

Each one was a beautiful individual with their own story.

John’s story is different in the fact that his voice and pain were documented. I have personally seen his story help others because people can relate to what he was feeling.

It is my hope that they can see that what they feel is not isolated inside them.

That is where we save lives.

If you want to share John’s story, use it to make a connection.

I challenge everyone of you to give him that legacy.

I know we all have an inner voice that doubts and fears.

I have found that when I am most vulnerable, I later became the most understood.

Things that were painful to share became the very way I connected.

Mostly, to a lot of you.

I want to thank you all for that.

And I want to show you the power of connection.

It started with private messages and ended with lifelong friends.

I expected a tag. Or some wildflower seeds. I never expected the sweet little notes and heartfelt encouragement.

Some of you have shared with me some painful things you have experienced.

We understood each other.

So if there are any who are struggling, this is what I want to show you.

As my precious friend Bec told me, “grief is love with nowhere to go”.

Somehow it came here to me.

How it ended up in my laundry room is strictly because I couldn’t pack it away.

But when I saw the door with all the names guarding this beauty, I thought it was appropriate.

So here is a little glimpse of the love from everywhere.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

This is why I wanted to share this week.

If you want to talk about John, let’s continue with what happened afterwards.

I think it is just as important.

Love to all,

Cheryl

4 thoughts on “I want to show you something…

  1. You’re posts make my day! You write beautifully and always seem to say something I needed to hear. “Grief is love with nowhere to go” Maybe finding a new destination is part of the healing. Thank you Cheryl x

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  2. Wow, I see a lot of love!!! A million thank yous for how you have been present for me, and for all of us. I am ever grateful for what you have done since John’s story was told. I bet Brian and all connected to the making of the podcast could not have dreamed what would happen in Woodstock and beyond after. Powerful stuff. Beautiful powerful stuff. My heart will always ache a little for not getting to hear John B.’s rants in person, for not hearing him tell me about all his plants, and his dogs, and more. But my heart is fuller for the connections we have all made. Long live the spirit of John B. in the good we all share.
    oxoxoxo
    love,
    Becca

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