When everyone listens to the podcast, they are left with that heavy feeling.
I always want them to know about the beautiful things I have shared with you this week.
This really is just a tiny drop in the bucket of this story. I could never tell you everything. It is unbelievable.
Simple acts of effort.
And even laughter.
I was sent this screenshot and it still makes me laugh.
Our united effort was to not only memorialize John but also to publicly state the fact that one person lost is one too many.
I wanted to end this week with another group project because we have done that so well.
They were all a part of celebrating the impact John had on your life.
I would love for us now to commit to educating ourselves.
Whether you know it or not, there is a John in your life. Maybe one in your mirror.
Educating myself helped me understand John and my own depression.
I saw a quote where a celebrity was asked about whether or not talking publicly about her depression was difficult. And she said that actually it was the opposite.
It was almost like every time she talked about it, she spit out a little of the poison.
One day this discussion group will be a thing of the past in your life.
When you look back on the impact of this podcast, I want it to be a turning point.
Just like it was for me. When I saw my own words out there by my friend Julia.
I want you to promise me this.
I want you to listen to the birds sing.
I want you to appreciate a sunset.
I want you to smile.
I want you to do all of those things that are an immense part of living and we take for granted.
And then when it rains.
You run late.
I want you to work on your inner voice.
I want you to take a deep breath and shake it off.
I want you to forgive yourself.
But most of all I want you to keep going.
And know if you did it for no one else, you did it for John.
We are all now your forever friends because at some point or another we all live in a mental S-Town.
But it doesn’t even matter, if we are all in this together.
So many of you have said if I just could have talked to him.
I remember thanking Joy Langdon Gray in a private message for understanding that John had issues and still loving him.
Her reply has echoed in my head ever since, “We all have issues.”
Yes we do.
And he would love that.
So here’s to all of us and our issues.
If you can’t share your story, share his. Or share both.
And that’s all I have to say about that for tonight.
Meeting of S-Town Anonymous is now adjourned.